Embracing Change

Here are words that have been used to describe me:

Control Freak

Type A

Red Personality

Bossy

and I am sure that are many more that people use under their breath. I have known all of this for a very long time, and I have learned to use my "freakiness" to my benefit. I understand my limitations and try to grow in those areas. I have used my strengths to do all sorts of good things, and I laugh at myself A LOT. While it is true that I have to write grocery trips on my calendar, I will not go to the store without a list, and the thought of my husband surprising me with an unplanned get away gives me anxiety to the point of wanting to puke... I have made some improvements lately. I let Jack pick out his own clothes, comb his hair, and walk to school with his friends. I even let him make mistakes on his homework and turn them in if he does not want my help. These were big steps for me, and I didn't die.

I actually like changes, as long as I can plan and somewhat control said changes. So when my husband's dream-job turned out to be anything but a dream, and we were faced with sudden, huge, seemingly unmanageable changes I was sure that my head might actually explode. Instead, I have been able to stay calm, breath, and adapt. Who knew? Here is a quick update on what is going on in our lives right now.

• I went back to work full-time. For those of you reading this that have no idea what I do, I am a business analyst for a software company out of SLC/Denver. I have been working from home since Tyler went to law school (almost 8 years). I had been part time since Sam was born (3 years). I am now working 8 hours every day.


• We gave our renters notice, moved out of our rental in Meridian ID and moved back into our house in Post Falls ID.


• Jack had to change schools again this year. He is extremely resilient - luckily he got that from his dad. He has found all of his old friends and is so happy to be back.


• Tyler is starting his own firm up here in Coeur D' Alene Idaho and also in the process of getting licensed in Utah and opening up a firm in Ogden. When everything is up and running, he will be commuting between the two a lot. We may even get to move to Utah when the market is such that we can sell our home up here. In the mean time, we are enjoying the space, the beautiful trees, and being back by our friends. I can't wait to pop into my favorite scrapbook store and start staying up 'til midnight with those crazy ladies.


• Logan turned 9 and 10 months during this time and is ever changing. He is so close to walking - letting go of furniture and propelling himself forward. He just needs his legs to catch up with him. He has 4 teeth and is still very busy. He is a little boy on a mission. A very naughty mission. Still darling and still loves his mommy! I cannot believe he is almost a year old.


• Sam had to leave his beloved pre-school. He keeps asking me if Shelly (his teacher) is here yet. He also pretends to call his friends on the phone and it is breaking my heart. The move has been the hardest on him, but he is starting to come around. I will find him something here soon, so he can get back in school. He is very smart and really enjoys learning. He loves to "read". He has memorized several books that he will "read" to us at bed-time. He still talks in a cute little boy voice, and I love listening to him say things like, "Mom, I yike yogan's yizard."

Confession

I am eating Ben and Jerry's Fudge Brownie ice cream while I watch the Biggest Looser. Do you see a problem with that? It is a big problem for me. For some reason, me watching Biggest Looser = me eating crappy junk food. To make me feel worse, my mom told me once how much she loves the Biggest Looser and that she used to do the treadmill while she watched. Seriously??? I wish that was the effect it had on me.

p.s. I am out of ice cream, please send more chocolate.

Traditions

I loved reading Kierste's and Andee's family traditions; it is fun to see how many are the same as ours. Here is a list of our family traditions during the holidays.

1. Putting up the decorations the day after Thanksgiving, or as soon as possible after Thanksgiving.

2. Planning and making handmade Christmas cards. Crazy, too much work, but I love it.

3. Taking 5 million pictures that look like this.

just to get one that looks like this and can be included in the Christmas card.

4. If we are in Utah, Christmas shopping the day after Thanksgiving with the girls to see how close we can get to being done in one day.

5. Visiting Santa. I love the horrible pictures we end up with most years. If at least one kid isn't crying, why bother. When we lived up North, we also took a yearly cruise to the North Pole to see Santa. It was a family favorite!

6. Advent calendars. We have a beaded tree ornament, and a felt Christmas tree that is as close to the one my Mom has that I could find. We also have a new one from my mom that has scriptures for each day.

7. Christmas books every night. If you need a fantastic book for Older kids and adults alike, check out my SIL's blog. The Red Ranger Came Calling is mine and Tyler's absolute favorite. Jack liked it this year too. We have a great collection, because my mom gives a new wonderful Christmas book every year. We love that!

8. On Christmas Eve, we open a new pair of PJs (Ballard tradition) and a new ornament for each of us every year. We also have all of the ornaments that Tyler got every year of his life with his parents. It has been a fun tradition to adopt from his family.

9. Christmas Morning, we have pull-aparts and juice. Yummy

10. After Christmas we go to Utah to visit our family. We always have a Ballard/Edwards party with my mom's sister's family. This party is full of traditions that have been going on since we were kids. Some we still do, and some we just remember. This party used to be the Whitney Party on Christmas day at my Grandparent's house. We always ate and opened presents from Grandma and Grandpa. Aunt Sandra used to make the girls night gowns and matching doll night gowns. They were amazing and now she does it for the little girls. I am as excited to see them open them as they are. Grandpa also gave us an envelope from the bank with a little money in it, and Grandma gave us each a box of orange sticks. We would wait for a call from my Aunts Barbara and Gayleen when they lived in Florida and we would pass around the phone and visit. When I was a little girl, this was my favorite part. I felt so grown up talking "long distance". Funny how cell phones have changed that concept. We would also get boxes from Barbara from Florida. One year we all got Florida t-shirts. They were our favorite shirts that year. Then we play the game where you wrap presents up really tight with lots of duct tape and newspapers and roll dice to get a chance to open them up fast before the next person rolls a double or seven or 11. At the end we have a few rounds where you are allowed to steal presents from each other. This game was fun when we were kids and still just as much fun. Our gifts are all $5 but there always seems to be something that everyone fights for. For fun, we have a separate game for the kids, so that they don't cry when Uncle Don or one of the other grown ups steal their gifts. We spend the rest of the night visiting. Our family has grown to include lots and lots of little grand kids. I like to imagine what Grandpa and Grandma Whitney would think to see how their family has grown so much. I am so grateful to my mom and Aunt Sandra for continuing this party. It is a really big part of my holiday memories. We are having this party in the church gym this year, because we have grown so much - we definitely would not fit in Grandma's living room anymore.

11. While we are in Utah, Tyler's family also has a family party with his brother, sister and their families. Luckily his brother has a few girls, because the rest of the grand kids are all boys. This party can get silly and loud. The favorite game for the kids is digging through a big bag full of newspaper and wrapping paper to get toys and treats. We are still changing this party around to find our favorite traditions. We went bowling last year and are going to try that again this year.

I love the holidays. Hope all is well with all of you. Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, and all of that stuff!

Pillow Talk

Sam crawled into bed with me. His hair was all messy, he had puppy breath, and he put his hands on my cheeks and said, "I wuv you mommy. I don't want you to get buried in the temple."

Guess the teacher in nursery needs to make sure the kids know she is saying married and not buried. Man when he is not being naughty, he sure can be sweet.

fla la la la la

For family night this week, we went and saw Santa at the mall. It happened to be pet night and I swear the dogs people brought were the size of horses. The kids loved it. I could not believe that Sam was not nervous at all, and Logan didn't cry either. Jack colored Santa a picture and brought paper and a pencil to ask for his autograph. I have given up having all three boys smile at the same time. This was the best we got and I love it. It shows what it is really like - Jack not looking straight ahead pulling strange faces, Sam not smiling pulling strange faces, and Logan not being sure if he wants to laugh or cry. Perfect!

Today was the 2nd grade Christmas program at school. Tyler is on a plane to Nebraska, so I took Logan and Sam all by myself. (Please send chocolate) We actually sat next to some friends, so they helped hold Logan and keep him busy while I held onto Sam. It was standing room only, and I was lucky to get one seat for all of us. Jack was darling. He waved and smiled before it started, but he was very serious when the program began. He sang with all of his heart and looked so handsome up there with the other kids. It was an interesting program with Christmas numbers from all over the world. They had drums and maracas. It was fun to watch the kids getting into the beat. The 5th grade orchestra also played. They were very excited too. Sam liked the music, and Logan ate his sock. Good times. Sorry it is a bad picture, I didn't bring my good camera.

Cannons and things

Jack really likes to donate things to charity this year. He picked out a great gift for Toys for Tots, and begs for money to put into the red kettles. Now if only, he could use his own money and not all of mine... Maybe next year.

The reason for the post is this gem. Tyler gave Jack and Sam each a quarter to put in the kettle. We were walking to the van when Jack said, "Why do those bell ringer people give all of the needy people cannons and things?" Tyler looked at me puzzled and I started figuring it all out. See to a 7 year old, the logical meaning of Salvation Army would be an Army that helps the needy people save themselves from war. I quickly explain to Tyler, and we tried really hard not to laugh at Jack. Tyler explained the other meaning of salvation and I explained the type of help that was given with the donations gathered. Jack's response was given with great disappointment, "you mean it has nothing to do with wars?" Luckily, the Marines are out in uniform gathering toys for tots. He knows all about Marines and after donating his toy to a Marine that looked like he was 14 and half my size, Jack says, "Mom, Marines are tough!" Gotta love little boys.

Too Soon!

Look what the little monkey figured out this week. Doesn't he look so proud of himself? I am not ready for this. He also found the dog dishes and had a little snack - GROSS! I have some serious baby proofing to do this weekend. Logan will be 8 months old on the 24th. He is way ahead of any of my other babies as far as mobility is concerned. He is very independent and wants to be down to get into his own trouble as long as he can see me. He does not like to be left in a room alone and will follow me out as quickly as he can. It's like having two puppy dogs in the house right now.

Please ignore the snotty nose. Logan and Sam both have little colds this week. So far, nothing serious.

Apart from the snot, how fun is waking up to this little guy!?! Even if I did get in at 3 am after watching New Moon with 35, way too old to be so excited when a teenage boy takes of his shirt, women in my ward. I will have to make another post on my Twilight experience soon. It has definitely been memorable.